Sweaty palms, unable to move my hands, im frozen, literally immobilized. I am unable to turn my head, let alone try to get out of the bed that im sleeping on, im trying so hard to scream but my voice isn't coming out. I feel suffocating, shortness of breath. Im not alone, i can feel it. I can feel the presence of another being in this room. There she was, emerging from shadows, she walked from behind, she stood right behind me, i am scared, i am so scared, i wanted her gone,i wasn't so scared of her before, she helped me before, but right now I'm freaking out. I knew she was going to hurt me while i lay helplessly on the bed. There's no one at home, even if i could scream, who would i call for help? She held my throat with both her hands, tight, so tight, i realised she is trying to kill me, im trying to survive,but i understand that there is no way i can. Thank you lord, i cannot move. I am trying to breath but find it hard to oxygenate.
Her grip over my muscles tightens, with other hand, she takes out a knife, this was unexpected, this was not on the list of different ways to die tonight, she brought the knife closer, i know i have to fight her to survive. But it felt as if my body has already given up. I cannot fight her, i am a frozen piece of flesh ready to be stabbed on the bed. i give up to my fate. So this is how i am going to die.
This feeling has been haunting me, i didn't think i would have to live through it. I thought i had time till my death. Death was supposed to feel beautiful,but this feels scary, scary to the point i have no control over my body, im unable to move?The fact that im more afraid of this being killing me rather than my own death. Who is she and why is she killing me?
She started stabbing me with the knife, once, twice, thrice, she keeps stabbing me continuously into my abdomen. Im horrified, i give up. Now im just laying, waiting to die and for her to go away. But i cannot turn my head. Im paralyzed, with only my eyes looking at her.
The whole time i kept saying "its just a dream, its just a dream."
I know i was going to wake up soon. This was going to be a dream that will have my head messed up. I woke up, the clock hit 12:00, i was surprised to feel the same even after i opened my eyes. I was paralyzed, im trying to move but im only able to turn my eyeballs from each corner of my eye. It was pitch dark, just like how it was before i woke up. I am terrified by the thought that it might happen again. This dream felt so true, it feels like i have lived through every second of it.
Her black shadow of dust and darkness. She looked like me, i was filled with complete darkness and gases of black dust and killed myself in my sleep, and now after i opened my eyes, im waiting for her to come from behind. Im petrified with the thought that she might be right behind me. im waiting for myself to show up. My breathing intensifies, i can feel my own heartbeat. So many thoughts running in my head. I didn't know what to do. I prayed hard and loud. Loud enough god would listen to me.
I don't know when I went back to sleep but now as i open my eyes, i know im not alone, i can listen to the sounds coming out of my window and the light that is piercing my eyes through the blinds.
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