PEACE

 

My heart doesn't believe what is in front of me.

All that I am seeing, all that I am feeling.

I wish I could unsee it, I wish I could turn off my feelings.

It feels like history is repeating.

Going mary go round in the lane of my memories.

Going through the dark history I never want to open again.

Lying in front of me are the questions with no answers

How am I going to fight life if I don't know how to live

My heart wants to believe, believe that everything will be fine

But my mind has a million questions with no answers

There was only one thing to do when life gets hard,

Suicide isn’t bad, it’s a way of living life

I would love to live life if I knew how to solve the problems it gave

When there are no solutions, life is giving me a choice

Living in hell or to live in peace

I see my dad suffering , I see my mom suffering, I see my brother dying every night as I sleep

I keep living through a loop of all the worst possible things

If I could switch my positions with their pain, I would do it with a happy heart

Whats more worst?

Being in pain or living to see everyone you love in pain?

I want to die with my people

Even if god helps my mom and dad and takes away their suffering, how are we going to survive without titu?

How are we going to live a happy life when we know he never had one?

We shouldn’t too

We are supposed to die a painful death

This pain will put my heart to rest, our hearts to rest

Om sai ram baba, take us to you

 

 

I really hope this will be my last post in the blog