I want to wake up from this dream.
Trapped between the walls of the life I don't want to live. These four years have been so hard to pass, life has been a rollercoaster with so many ups and downs, but mainly downs.
Where am I right now? I have no clue. These four years I have lost so much.
I lost people, I lost my home, I lost my way,I LOST YOU, I lost a part of myself. The living part of myself.
I no longer know, if I'm alive or dead. I think I'm breathing dead.
One moment I have everything that makes me feel alive, next moment I have nothing.
One moment we are playing together and the next second you're gone.
Life can be so unpredictable sometimes, I wish there was an undo button, so that i could go back in time and make everything alright.
I'm broke in a way, I never thought I would, I changed in a way, I never thought I would, I live in a way, that I never thought I would.
I don't know how I would spend the rest of my life without you. These four years were nothing but me living in an everyday loop.
How much longer do I have to stay this way.
You won't be back. I want to come to you.
I know the journey, but there's no path ahead.
Living lifeless is not how I imagined my life to be.
Journey without you is so long,every year feels like a decade, how am I going to live my entire life without you?
You loved me more than you loved yourself.
You loved me more than you loved yourself.
Even when I had nothing, you made me feel complete.
Even when I was broken, you made me feel complete.
Even when I was unhappy, you made me feel complete.
You made me feel alive.
You were that one person, I never wanted to lose.
You were that one person, whom I always wanted to see happy.
You are that one person, I still want to be with.
I wish we didn't have to say goodbye.
I wish today never came.
I wish I didn't have to miss you.
I wish I was still there beside you.
Your voice still echoes in my head, I can still see you crying in my mind.
The voice of your sound, the sound of your laughter, the look in your eyes when you smiled, and your eyes when you cried, the way we sang songs, the way we played games. The way you left. I remember every small detail.
The way you curled your thumb on your index, the way you ate palli bellam, the way you played talking tom gold run, the way we hacked games to get more money, the way you had crush on buchi, the way you called me billbakka, the way you made dosas on nana's stomach, the way you slept on amma's laps, the way you took a lot of pain to get better and the way you left.
I think I knew I would always lose you, but didn't think it would be so soon. I wasn't ready, I don't think I could ever be ready.
But all I know is, you don't deserve to live a life filled with sorrows and pain.
You pure soul deserve nothing but the happiness God has to give.
I'm really happy that you are happy up there.
Maybe I'm lucky enough to be able to spend seven years with you.
Because you are so rare to get.
I am really happy, that you showed me life, you made me happy, the way I never thought existed.
Being with you I was always happy. Now I can't find a reason to be happy
Being with you I was never alone.
Now I feel alone even when I'm surrounded by people.
I'm too hurt to let it go, this pain is now a part of me. This dark feeling is now a part of me.
I miss you in a way you don't think exists. I love you so much. My love will never die. I will forever be holding on to you.
I can never love someone the way I love you.
I will love you the same forever, now and everyday.
You are the purest soul I ever met.
You are what I am today
Your love is what made me today
You are everything anybody can ever have.
You are the best gift I had
You are the best gift that I lost
I never told
I never shared
I never showed.
